This is Me For Forever, One Of The Lost Ones, The One Without A Name
The first week of excavations has been hell: my boss apparently despises me, says I live in a world of mine, don't work and don't care about others - well, he talked in general, but I know I was in the group of people he's not happy with.
I'm exhausted, I've worked hard and harder than the previous excavations, but apparently it hasn't been enough... there's always something I do wrong and moreover he gets angry with me for things I haven't done!
For example, he told me to put away a case with tools on tuesday evening: I did it. Next morning there were pincers out of the case and he said it was my fault! I wasn't the one who closed the room where we keep the tools, I wasn't the one to leave out the pincers, why does he have to get angry with me??
Then thursday evening I argued for the first time with my friend B. and I felt horrible and humiliated.
I really hope next week will be better, 'cause I don't know if I can resist other five weeks like this!
I'm exhausted, I've worked hard and harder than the previous excavations, but apparently it hasn't been enough... there's always something I do wrong and moreover he gets angry with me for things I haven't done!
For example, he told me to put away a case with tools on tuesday evening: I did it. Next morning there were pincers out of the case and he said it was my fault! I wasn't the one who closed the room where we keep the tools, I wasn't the one to leave out the pincers, why does he have to get angry with me??
Then thursday evening I argued for the first time with my friend B. and I felt horrible and humiliated.
I really hope next week will be better, 'cause I don't know if I can resist other five weeks like this!
On the bright side, yesterday night I went to see "Batman: The Dark Knight" with some friends and it was AMAZING; Heath Ledger was fantastic as The Joker (he hypnotized me and made my head spin) and Aaron Eckhart is great too. I must say, all the actors were awesome- I adored Gary Oldman, Christian Bale, Morgan Freeman and Michael Caine too; I liked Maggy Gillenhaal as Rachel (I hated the character in Batman Begins 'cause I hate Katie Holmes with her strange smile) and I've almost squealed when Cillian Murphy appeared as The Scarecrow - I so love his eyes!
I was very sad during the movie, thinking it's practically the last movie Heath Ledger starred in...
"What does not kill you, makes you stranger!"
"You see, nobody panics when things go according to plan. Even if the plan is horrifying. If I told people that a gangbanger was going to get shot, or a busload of soldiers was going to get blown up, nobody would panic. Because it's all part of the plan. But tell people that one tiny little mayor is going to die and everyone loses their minds!"
The Joker - Batman, The Dark Knight
In Memory Of Heath Ledger
