The Pythia's Cave

I have a dilemma.

You see, in Jordan I bought a gift for my friend Nicola's birthday (which was the 16th): since he's interested in biology, zoology and fossils I bought him from Petra and the desert two horns - thinking it was an original gift.

But, back in Italy and in Padua, some of my male friends told me that it could be misunderstood, because in Italy, to say that a man/woman was cheated on by his/her partner we say that he/she "has grown horns" - and moreover Nicola's former gf (the one before Betta) had in a way cheated on him.

But I didn't thought of this! My gift had been bought with good and innocent intentions!
This evening I went out with Nicola, Giovanni and Will and I wanted to give him the gift, but after Giovanni had warned me again (though he said that Nicola wouldn't probably think bad of me, since he's a good-tempered guy) I couldn't find the courage. So in the end I said goodbye without giving it to him.

I feel so conflicted now! 
On one side, I don't think Nicola would be offended;
on the other side, I don't want to risk it, since I had already offended Giovanni with his birthday's gift.

Damn, why are males so complicated?

Tonight I'm so alone
This sorrow takes ahold
Don't leave me here so cold
Never want to be so cold

Your touch used to be so kind
Your touch used to give me life
I've waited all this time, I've wasted so much time

[Falling Inside the Black - Skillet]


I'm angry and bitter.

On Sunday my friend Riccardo (Ricky) is leaving for Japan: for months. He's coming back on September/October. I came to Modena just to see him.

With my friends we had agreed to have a party tomorrow/today (it's already past midnight) for him.
Well, this evening (at 10.50 pm) I found a text message from my friend Eugi (who should be one of my BEST FRIENDS) inviting all the gang to her house for 10 pm - however I arrived home at 7.30 pm and was simply exhausted - so I answered her that I had seen the message only in that moment and that we were going to see each other tomorrow evening.

Eugi: "Riccardo says -hi- and says you're going to see each other in october after the graduation"

I was shocked "Why, isn't he coming tomorrow? What about the party?"

Eugi: "We went out this evening - there's no party tomorrow. You can find us at the pub"

WTF, WTF, WTF, WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Me: "Maybe you could have just told me! Tomorrow morning I have to get up early and my mom doesn't want me to go out! You could have told me earlier - you sent me a message at 9pm for 10 pm and you know I get back late at friday evening!"

Eugi: "I have sent a message to everyone else, they all came and they have no problems."

Me: "OF COURSE, FUCK, YOU'RE ALL IN MODENA! I had to come back from Padua and I had some health problems this week!"

Goddamn I'm so angry I can barely see straight.
I was really looking forward to see RIccardo! I'm going to miss him so much!

And what hurts the most is that Eugi didn't care enough to phone me to ask if I was coming or why hadn't I aswered to the message. When I organize an outing I send them a message then I call them if they don't answer (which Eugi does 90% of the time and usually I CAN'T find her anywhere 'cause she doesn't answer to her cellphone).
Damn, I feel like... trash. Trash that can be tossed out of the window and forgotten.

I guess I'm not that important to her.
 

Yesterday night I went with Terry to Milan for the HAMMERFALL CONCERT!
It was AWESOME - first played a band called Sabaton that I've never heard before, but they were great, then Hammerfall came out! 
They played most of my favourite songs (Glory to the Brave, Blood Bound, Hearts On Fire, Any Means Necessary, etc...) and when Joacim (the lead singer) said that they were going to play a song from Legacy of the Kings, I knew it was HEEDING THE CALL - my favourite song of theirs!

Really it was much fun, I'm going to post the photos soon!

It's been two days since anyone submitted reviews and/or stories on fanfiction.net and I think I'm going crazy! I want to read new stories! I want to see if Yellow Mask has updated her beautiful "Ripples" or if other authors have updated... 
Gah, seeing always the same stories at the beginning of the page make me feel irritated!

Well, yesterday I finished my exams for the winter session! Now I only have 5 exams before graduating - I'm happyyyyy!!
I can finally relax a little bit.

Taken from cutecrazyice (hope you don't mind sweetie).

The BBC allegedly believes most people will have only read 6 of the 100 books here.

How do your reading habits stack up? [bold those books you've read in their entirety, italicize the ones you started but didn't finish]


1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6 The Bible
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19 The Time Traveller’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
34 Emma - Jane Austen
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel
52 Dune - Frank Herbert
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov (starting this soon)
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding
69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75 Ulysses - James Joyce
76 The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78 Germinal - Emile Zola
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
80 Possession - AS Byatt
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87 Charlotte’s Web - EB White
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo

Total: 33/100

But consider I mostly read fantasy books and also Italian books which aren't mentioned here (like, Dante's Divine Commedy, Boccaccio, Petrarca, Manzoni, Goldoni etc...). At the moment I'm reading 4 books and not-Italian people probably wouldn't know any of them :D

Meme from cutecrazyice (not sure if I'll do 1 - I just want to post my 5 things)

1. Comment to this post & I will give you 5 things I associate you with.
2. Then post this in your LJ and elaborate on the subjects given.

1) LJ USERNAME - OBSCURITYSTAR: well, I first tried Laura-chan, but it was already used, so I decided for something "strange" and unusual. 'Obscurity' because I like metal and gothic and dark (and wearing black); 'star' because it's something that shines and it goes well with obscurity.
I admit in the beginning I wasn't happy of this username, but now it grew on me :)

2) ITALY: well, what can I say about Italy? It's my country and I have a love/hate relationship with it. I love the story, the culture, the cities, the nature, the food, the friendliness of people. I hate the politicians (a few only are good), I hate the fact that we have the Church who keeps poking its nose in places it doesn't belong in (like, our laws), I hate the mafia, I hate the fact that Italians seem not to have any idea of what "national's pride" and "civil education" mean, I hate the fact that we have so many resources (first of all, our past history) which are treated like shit, I hate the fact that if you want to arrive somewhere in life you must lick asses or have high sources, I hate the fact that Italians re-elected Berlusconi as First Minister. I hate the fact that probably I will have to go outside Italy to find a decent job, 'cause archaeologists are treated like they're useless (for example, a chief archaeologist on an excavation is payed 1600 euros per month, an inexpert bar keeper 2000 euros). I hate the fact that my country doesn't seem to care about giving a future to its young citizens.
I wish I could do something to make Italy a better country.

3) NARUTO: it's actually my favourite manga (before there was Inuyasha). But I must admit I'm a bit tired of it - it was awesome until Sasuke went away, then things went downhill. I like that Sakura got stronger in Shippuuden, but other than that I feel that too many people are dying... I want my SasuSaku ending!! Kishimoto-sensei, you're getting me angryyyyy and frustrated! Moreover, I think that the females are deeply understimated: I mean, he created such powerful characters (Tsunade, Sakura, Temari, Ino etc.) and Kishimoto completely forgot to develope them save for Sakura! He always gives much space to males, but he seems to forget that Naruto has a very large base of female fans.

4) ARCHAEOLOGY: I live for archaeology - I was 3-4 years old when I first began saying that I would become an archaeologist. I love history, and studying past civilations. It's a neverending passion that grows in me everyday.

5) FANDOMS: I love manga, I love books, I love reading fanfictions - and writing them! Thanks to fanfictions I learnt English: I mean, of course I studied it in school, but it's different when you start reading for passion and you WANT to know what that phrase means. I like also to draw but it's been years since I had time to draw like I did in high school. Favourite fandoms are Naruto and Harry Potter nowadays (I love SasuSaku and DracoHermione), but I have minor interests (Inuyasha - which once was a major interest, Prince Caspian, Bones, Full Metal Alchemist, Full Metal Panic!, etc..).

It's 3.20AM here in Italy and I'm still awake. I hate it when I can't sleep because of an exam.
I also had two BIG panic attacks and they weren't fun.

I know there are bigger problems.
I know it's just an exam and if I don't pass it I can try it in June.
I know the professor is not a bastard.


I know this.

But I can't help but feel anxious, and nervous, and a bit hysterical.

This has been one of the worst and one of the best nights in my life. 
On one side, I was unable to sleep (I LOVE SLEEPING), I'm nervous and in a few hours I'm going to have an exam.
On the other side, I talked and talked and talked to a new friend of mine, who I have discovered recently. Her name is Orsi (short for Orsetta) and probably she's going to be reading this in the morning (since she's the only one of my friends who knows about my lj).

So, thanks Orsi for the help you gave me for the exam and for listening to my problems!

OMG, I don't even know why The Nightmare Before Christmas' opening song came to my mind....

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!


I'm quite desperate
*deep breaths*
*deep breaths*

My Greek Arch. exam is tomorrow morning.... WHY DO I FEEL LIKE I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING??


AAAAAAHHHHHHH



-don't mind me, I'm just anxious.

Girls, thank you for your support!
Fortunately my Christian Archaeology exam went well, 30/30 ^^ I'm really happy!

However, on Monday I have Greek Archaeology and I really, REALLY, don't have any will to study, Today I didn't do much and even if mostly I just have to re-read and repeat everything, there are things I must study better. But I'm exhausted, without energy.
What keeps me going on is the thought that four exams are done and I only have two more.

It's not that I don't like Greek Archaeology - I just need to find the right mood and state of mind, right now they're both eluding me.

Moreover my roommate is not here and I have the room for myself... that means I totally laze around, I sit on the bed with the pc, the book on the side, my aroma-therapy (ginseng and cinnamon, should be energyzing) near.

To distract myself (something I've done all the afternoon *rolls eyes at herself* I can't help it) I'll change my lj icons.


 

So, tomorrow I have my Christian Archaeology exam... I just hope it goes well and that she won't ask me complicated things.
I'm a bit nervous, but not too much; maybe 'cause it's written... I don't know.

I hope I'll be able to fall asleep tonight (I NEVER sleep well the night before an exam! That's frustrating!)

[Title means: Free us from Evil, but what's my evil (deed)?]

Ok, I'm depressed.
I was used of always doing well in my exams, but the last two had not gone so well! I did an exam today and took 25/30 (which is my lowest grade), I went to register the vote of Medioeval Archaeology and the professor realized she'd considered right things wrong - so she gave me 26/30 instead of 24, BUT STILL! 
My usual grades are 30, 30 w/ praise, 28 at mininum...

Have I been studying less? Or is it just bad luck?
Either way, I'm depressed.
I have an exam on friday, I hope to pass it well...

Title: Anthology
Chapter title: Mistake (32)
Chapter rating: T
Summary: Oneshots Collection -SasuSaku- Rating doesn't apply to every chapter: "He had realized he had done the worst mistake of his life so far."

Chapter 32: "Things shouldn’t have gone like this."



Yep, finally I have updated! But I don't want to get your hopes up, I'm not going to update regularly... My life is really too busy at the moment...

Just so everyone knows...

The Italian Giovanni (John) Belzoni around 1815-1820 discovered the Tomb of Seti I, The Valley of the Kings and the Temple of Abu Simbel (Egypt): the British Museum in London received many of its Egyptian statues from him. Unfortunately, Belzoni is not widely known, but he was an important explorer at the time.

I was watching a program about the discoveries of Jean-Francoise Champollion, Giovanni Belzoni and Howard Carter - and I realized that while many know that Carter discovered Tutankhamon's tomb, few realize the importance of Belzoni for Egyptian Archaeology. I love my country, so sue me  :P



Today in my town happened two earthquakes - one at 4.20 PM and another at 11 PM (while I was watching this program at the tv) - the "strongest" one was the first, of 5.2 Richter degrees.
It's a bit strange 'cause my town isn't in a sismic zone 'cause there are many swamps.... and two earthquakes in one day is unusual.
I wasn't scared, but still...

Meme by maple_charm

1. Set your MP3/Ipod/Cellphone or any shit you use to listen music to Shuffle.
2. For each question you will press "next" to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THE NAME OF THE SONG, NO MATTER HOW STUPID IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 10 people, including the person that tagged you.

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'EVERYTHING IS FINE', WHAT DO YOU ANSWER?
Son Of The Sun - Therion   (Mmm...)

WHAT DESCRIBES YOUR PERSONALITY?
Die With Your Boots On - Iron Maiden  (Oh yes, I'm headstrong and I won't give up 'till the end!)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A BOY/GIRL?
Land of Confusion - Disturbed  (O.O ehm what?)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Blue Wine - Autumn (yep, this is perfect! "Let's not waste another second and wash down the years..." this is what I feel!)

WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE IN LIFE?
Heaven's a Lie - Lacuna Coil (Mmm... I'm an atheist and I don't believe in God, Hell, Heaven and so on - maybe I'll spread my beliefs...?)

WHICH IS YOUR SLOGAN?
La Mia Ragazza Mena/My Girlfriend Fights - Articolo 31 (Mmm.. it's about a different kind of woman, that may be it!)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Un Giorno Così/A Day Like This - 883 (O.O thanx...?)

WHAT ARE YOU OFTEN THINKING ABOUT?
In Joy and Sorrow - HIM  (Really, do I?)

2+2?
Someone Else - Allegro (WHAT?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT YOUR BEST FRIENDS?
Animal Instinct - Cranberries (AHAHAHAH, yes, that's right! I love them to death but sometimes they drove me crazy!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Over The Hills And Far Away - Nightwish (Yes, HE MUST LOVE ME LIKE THIS!)

WHICH IS THE STORY OF YOUR LIFE?
Draw Me - Sonata Arctica (Yes, there are SOME similaries)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Baila Morena/Dance Brunette- Zucchero (O.O And my future as an archaeologist?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Seduto In Riva al Fosso/Sitting Near the Ditch- Ligabue  (Well, I find it quite romantic...)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Hypnotize - System of a Down (yes, I DO!)

WHICH IS YOUR WEDDING'S SONG?
Bring Me To Life - Evanescence (Wow, that's quite... depressing)

WHICH IS YOUR FUNERAL'S SONG?
Red Flag - Billy Talent (AHAHAHAHAH!)

WHICH IS YOUR HOBBY?
Gift - Elisa (Really?)

WHICH IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Livin' la Vida Loda - Ricky Martin (lol, AS IF!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS?
Right Here in My Arms - HIM (well, yes, but only in a platonic way :D)

WHICH IS THE WORST CASE SCENARIO?
Know Why The Nightingale Sings - Nightwish (Yes, that can be it)

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne (lol, death by heartbreak?)

WHAT IS THE ONLY THING YOU REGRET?
Still Waiting - Sum 41 (THAT'S RIGHT!)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Stargazers - Nightwish (if you say so...)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Because Of You - Kelly Clarkson (yes.... too many regrets)

WILL YOU GET MARRIED SOMEDAY?
Fragile - Lacuna Coil (This means NO! I say it!)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Falling Inside The Black - Skillet (Yep, this is sooo right!)

DOES SOMEONE LIKE YOU?
Copycat - Cranberries (WTF?)

IF YOU COULD TURN BACK TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Rule The World - Take That (LOL! As if!)

WHAT HURTS YOU NOW?
Turn The Beat around - Gloria Estefan (?)

HOW WILL YOU NAME THIS POST?
Prima di Partire Per Un Lungo Viaggi/Before Leaving for a Long Travel - Irene Grandi (Mmm...)
Title of the post means: Before leaving for a long travel you must bring with you the convinction to never come back.

I don't tag anyone (lazyyyy) - if you want to do it, be my guest :D

I'm not a religious person: but I pray for the victims and the people in Mumbai.

It seems I can't understand why people hate each other so much - how can you hate a country so much that you want to destroy it completely, killing innocent people?

I deeply despise terrorism and I highly dislike those who say they hate Italians/French/Japanese/Americans/British/Spanish people etc.. for some reason or another. I don't understand them, how can you despise a whole nation? In every country there are good men and bad men - every religion has its pros and cons: a friend of my mother's is iranian and muslim, but she's a good woman, a good doctor, a good mother and a good friend.

You can't judge a person basing on his/her skin's color, his/her religion or his/her nationality.



It really kills me inside to see so much pain and so much suffering. And I don't hope in world's peace 'cause I believe it's utopistic.
But I would like to see more understanding, more love, more control, more rationality and less hate.

I've just had a quarrel with my parents.

It started with something idiotic then they started insulting me: I don't even know why do I care, when I know that it always ends like this when we argue.

They tell me I'm boring, I'm annoying, I'm careless, I'll remain without friends, I'm fat and so on. I don't watch or read "things", I watch and read rubbish. "What's this rubbish you're watching?" "What rubbish are you reading?" 

That thing that hurts me the most is when they say that I'm boring and annoying like an old lady and all my friends will abandon me. It's my worst fear.

So guys, last week I went to see SONATA ARCTICA in Piacenza! I LOVE THEM, I REALLY DO!
There were two support band, Vanishing Point (Australian, they were great!) and Pagan's Mind (boooring, we wanted SA!)

I got high when they started playing Fullmoon (I started jumping up and down and screamed 'till my throat got hoarse) and I love every single song they did - though I wish they would have played The Boy Who Wanted To Be A Real Puppet and/or Shamandalie (this song always makes me cry, it moves something deep within my chest).

 The poster on the floor of my room at the dorm (I don't know where to glue it :S)

Oh, you really can't imagine what I felt when I saw Tony (the singer) on the stage, it was all over like when I went to see Nightwish in February, I couldn't believe I was seeing them! Really watching them perform! In front of me! WAAAHHHH!

American friends, I'm sorry.
I truly am sorry.


Please, excuse our (how I hate to admit it) first minister, he doesn't know when he needs to shut up. He thinks he's so funny but he is a buffoon. I assure you that Italians aren't ALL like this - my friends and I feel very ashamed.

Berlusconi didn't know what he was saying when he declared that your newly elected President is "young, handsome and tanned" and that he's right for Putin. He doesn't listen to his brain (he only uses it when he has to gain more money).

Please, forgive us.
And believe me, if it was in my power, that psycodwarf (as we lovingly call him) would already been dead for a long time.

So, this is the first day (night) I'm going to spend in the dormitory: yep, I left my apartment with all the problems it had and decided to go in a dormitory.
I am in the room with another girl and we share the bathroom with another double room: my roommate, Valentina, seems nice enough - even if we are quite different. This is my first experience in a dormitory and I'm still a bit troubled and unsure, a bit scared - but excited at the same time. 

I just hope everything goes well - at least, better than with the apartment.

And tomorrow morning lessons start again! Brrr....